Toolbox Under Construction

Now here's a refreshing new idea. To say that you need to get your mind straight without it sounding like u gotta carry a heavy load or a cross on your back in order for things to get right. Well i'm gonna try to intelectualize it this is: I Have this mind of mine. Witch i have been getting very aquented with and i like to call it my very special toolbox.
My toolbox is actually underconstruction, so its note done yet. But it's getting there. The project is exciting so it keeps me always wanting to come back for more.
My goal is to equipe it with every tool that is necessary that i need to get to where i am going. Like i've said no matter how long it takes. I'm not even sweating it. Im in no hurry at all.All i want is to get it to a point where when i'm faced with a certain kind of material, or an unexpected situation i can just relax and say to my self "You know what? let me see... this right here, or that over there will help"
To a point where i can feel the wheels of my brain turning, even when i'm not speaking. Too Bold? Well yeah, damn right But i owe that to myself. I deserve it.

I now that the process has to go through opening up those conduits in me, those emotional conduits so that things can flow a lil more freely. I personally have always responded more to the idea that our imagination outlets us into more places. I think that there is nobody whose personal expecience is as rich as a human.
I think it goes for the poets and the writers and all kinds of places where art is born from. You cant tell your personal story or you can't learn and improve just by what you experience. You go to your mind where all the information that you have taken from what you've seen in the movies and the books you've read and the music that has touched you. All that feeds your imagination and helps you evolve into whatever you think that is what you want for you and your mind.
Its hard but you have to strip yourself down and trust the simplicity in you that level of simplicity thatis still pure. Trust your own humanity.Without letting the volume of your life speak so loud and magnetizig the drama of the issue. The hardest thing to do is to trust your own humanity and let it come through with any twists or complications of inflections. Just trust the simplicity of it without over analyzing or over reacting. Somethings as simple as that. They are what they are.
So these tools these lil steps you need to take are tools for your personal survivel kit.
Be real, be honest and be there.
Evolve excell evaluate your mind your atittude your behavior be ahead think out side the box, because forget the box, there is no box. Go beyond your limitations or what you think are your limitations.
All of these things will be a mirror to your soul.Dont get influenced by others negativy, dont gravitate towards it.
So think but dont over analize. The more you think from your heart and from the core of your humanity your simplicity. And you get to a point where you start living your life and acting on it so craftedly that to get where you should be you will instinctively do the things that you have to do and it will be coloured by who you are and who you want to be. but you have to have a real firm solide foundation to do that and you have to be able to trust that foundation and that's what gets you to the good stuff that you're meant for!

How about taking care of your beautiful mind?

They say, you know "those people", that mama said there would be days like this...and i'm not talking about PMS!.
You know those moments when you feel you're losing it. You're totally overwhelmed and about to snap at anything, or you're soaking it up and everyone is driving you nuts.
Some days i wake up in the morning with negative thoughts about me, my life, the people that are a part of my life even about spirituality. So "those people", the ones that spend their lives researching about human condition and behavior say that you need to transition from thinking thoughts that keep you down to rising up in spirit and letting good enter your life.
"Everything that happens in the world is a reflection of what first happens on the level of your own ideas.There is nothing in the world more powerful than thought." says Marianne Williamson, a specialist on subjects of spirituality.
So how significant is the power of thought. What your thoughts are about the issues of what you think and what you believe. Whether or not you think you have any power in your thinking. I mean, does it make things happen? Does it matter what you think? Does it matter what i think?
There's a great quote but a man called Charles Roman and the quote is about belief. And it says " Those who believe in ghosts, always see them".
But i'm not going to sit here and write about whether or not i believe is ghosts. I relate that quote to the power of belief and the power of thought.
So in that sequence of thought you come to a realization that what you focus on becomes true, at least to you.
If you substitute the word hope or progress or success or resilience or strenght or whatever word you wanna come up with that you want to see happen in your life, what would it mean. If you said "those who believe in hope always see it". So those who believe in progress always make it. Those who believe in resiliense always find their way of getting back up when they get knocked down.
Would it change your world, would it change you, and how would it change your life if instead of saying "i believe in ghosts" you'd say "I believe in hope". I see hope even when things look really bad or indeed are really bad. Because when situations like this occur your are bound to be pulled into the direction of negativity.
But this is the danger. That if you're pulled into the direction of negativity and you believe, what we focus on is what grows. Thats means that the negativity in your life is going to grow. So if you make the decition, and there's something called "self-fulfilling prophecy " (its a psychological term). But what it really means is that a lot of times what you believe is gonna happen to you, what you believe is gonna happen to someone else, you can make it happen.
So i say never underestimate the power of you mind and thoughs, so take good care of it. Feed in with good and positive information and energy.

Can You Define Irony?

Can you define irony?
It's when the actual meaning is the complete opposite from the literal meaning.


An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
"Well isn't this nice..."
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic...don't you think
A little too ironic...and, yeah, I really do think...

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out

Who's Gonna Ride Your Wild Horses...?

Silence please. I ask for a moment of silence so that i can center my world into me. Dont tell me about my flaws...i can't recall who left me this way. I just want to linger on a pause that cant last for as long as i need it to last.
So be silent those who know, and speak not those who dont. And in case you din't quite understand my intention, i'll say it again. Because today i'm going to think out loud through this pages about what has became of this girl that i once knew with an easy laugh and a joyfull spirit.
That girl. The one that i still have spasams of memory of when she was wild and free and almost an accident waiting to happen or a piece of glass left there on the beach.
What happend to the girl that would tell you things that you knew she was not suppose to and then would just leave you out of reach.
That presence that you could feel in the room, the one that everyone wanted to gravitate to.
But was that really me? Or was i just putting a front to be pleasent and creating this mask of irreverancy just to impress? Or dazzel them with my extensive knowledge of mineral water,or my in-dept analysis of, uh, uh maxi pads and lip gloss?
Its a b**tch to grow up i'll tell you. Is been a road of investment,its been like one foot out, one foot in...some days off???
Yeah its been a long hoal of restraining of trying to create a personna just for the viewing pleasent. How did i invest in such a fantasy?
I don't know. have no reasonable explanation, but i can write a detailed log on how it wore out my nervous system.I felt done. I felt that there was something there i hadn't gotten yet. I thought to myself "There's something to learn here that i have not". Something is not quite right. Why was i hovering above bottom thinking i can't servive whats below?! But you know what? I dont need no one to ride my wild horses. I've put them to rest and i'm ok with it. You know why? because the think that i know is that the only thing that i have to be is MYSELF!
So There's no point to any of this. It's all just a... a random lottery of meaningless tragedy and a series of near escapes. So I take pleasure in the details. You know... a quarter-pounder with cheese, those are good, the sky about ten minutes before it starts to rain, the moment where your laughter becomes a cackle... and I sit back and indulge on it all. But - Don't get me wrong just yet! i know its a bi**tch to grow up, but yet yu learn to set bounderies. There will be no secret handshake or sands of cool. There's not secret handshake. There is an IQ pre-requisite.Oh yeah!! So enough of the guy with the hat and the bells, you know...the Court Jester. Yeah because everything is so easy to laugh at when your at a safe distance isn't it? Oh The hole bravata of it!
So From now on :
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Stop Your Whining Already !!!!

If someone where to ask me if i considered myself a wise person i wouldn't hesitate and quickly answer "nope". But I'm under construction and if i keep this route that i am in, i might just have a chance at it. Wisdom comes with knowledge i know...so that's why i am committed at being the best of students so i can reach that goal.
Maya Angelou once wrote this " I love wisdom. And you can never be great at anything unless you love it. Not be in love with it, but love the thing, admire the thing. And it seems that if you love the thing, and you don't just want to possess it, it will find you. But if you're in love with the thing, it may run like hell away from you."
So i want my life to be defined by principals. But not just the principals that society dictates for you. I want to be defined by the principls that define me for who i am. That define me by my values and my healthy beliefs.
I have the right and not only the right but the responsibility to stand up for my interests . I can't ask somebody else to stand up for me if I won't stand up for myself. And so stand up for yourself, and just stop it already with the whinning. Whining is just unbecoming isnt it?

Finding YOU

These are not my words, but i found them to be very powerful. I think that this goes out to the believers and the ones that hold on to faith and God for survivel and peace of heart. Even if we might not agree too much or think it kind of borderline fanaticism, you have to respect these powerful words...

Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil,
as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:

The devil has a campaign against you going on at all times. His objective:
To stop you from hearing what God is saying about you. God has spoken a word
over your life, but the cares of this life, past experiences, and negative
influences will block you from hearing it. You must get into
position to hear what God has said about you. The enemy seems to already
know because he is usually attacking the very place in your life that God is
wanting to use. You must find that word. You must hear what God has said and
act on it. You must align yourself with the plan of God for you. The word
has already been spoken, and now it needs to be activated! But you must know
what it is before you can align yourself with it. That struggle for freedom,
that struggle for acceptance, that struggle for fulfillment is your
unconscious plight to get that word. But you must know first that God has
the word and you need to get closer to him to hear it so you can activate it
in your life.

It’s not hard to hear God. The hard part is deleting the other voices in your life so that
you can hear him clearly. The television, the radio, the phone calls, the movies, the
boyfriend/girlfriend, the newspaper columns, the stories, the novels, the friends,
the family, etc. are all voices! Many times we surround ourselves with
people, places, and things as an attempt to hear from God and that
is dangerous. You could have people in your life blocking you or voices in your
life detouring you. Take some time to find yourself! Not
by searching inside of you, but by seeking the will of God for your life. Get away from
everyone and everything for a period and silence all other voices in your life. You will
hear God speak to you and once you learn his voice, he will show you who you are
and why he made you. He will show you why the enemy is against you and how you
can walk in victory. Then, you will know who belongs in your life and who doesn’t. At
that point you will know what voices to keep in your life and which ones to silence.
Take the time and do it! What in this world could be more important to find, than the Word
God has spoken over your life?