Remember Me

I know somedays i hate you, and some days i'll write some hatefull things about you. But its a way i found to keep the pain at a distance. Because the least i want to do is remember you...remember us. It hurts right down to the bottom of my soul.
But today i dont hate you. Today i miss you. Why? why did u let me go. why didnt you call back and say "I didnt mean it. Come back!"
But i know its never gong to happen. I know i've lost you forever... know i'll never hear your voce or see you smile, or hear you heart beat. And its so hard to accept.
You dont know how many times i resist the tempation of calling you, just to hear your voice. Mayb eif you heard my voice you would chnge your mind...
But i know its over. I know there is no turning back. And i know that it would eventually end up this way, because you were nt suppose to be mine. You never loved me. But i loved you so...

Bye baby, see you around. Didn't I tell you I wouldn't hold you down
Take good care of yourself, you hear Don't let me hear about you shedding a tear or lettiing the devil ride you or going to often to that dark place you go.
You're gonna make it

Remember me as a sunny day That you once had, along the way
Didn't I inspire you a little higher ?!
Remember me as a funny clown that made you laugh when you were down with my sillyness, with my odd ways, with my peculiar ways of being didnt i?!

Remember me as a breath of spring. Remember me as a good thing
Remember me when we are happy and our morning glories and our blissfull nights and the way we had it good when things were good.

Bye baby, see you around I dont know if you have someone new and if you do,
What can I do but wish you well?
What we had was really swell. I won't forget it, No, I have no regrets

Remember me as a sound of laughter And my face the morning after
Yes, you'll remember the times we fought. But don't forget me in your tender thoughts
Please sweetheart.

Remember me when you drink you long island and if you see someone enjoying theur mohito and I gave you my best, i did. And what i didnt is because didnt know how.
Remember me with every ounce of good you have.
Remember me as a good thing.

Remember me as a sunny day and hw i loved the beach and how you knew it so well.Please darling, remember me as a good thing .Remember me when you drink your cognac...
Because i will always love you. Whenever, whereever and how ever!

i don't want to talk about it ever again

the change in my life is unsettling,
but i think i'm getting used to it after all these years.
i hope, at least.
I'm sorry that I force so many things to happen.
I don't think I've ever stopped
But maybe it's fate that I force things.
Maybe, if I didn't, none of this would have happened
i'm sorry i'm not as good as i once was.
i'm sorry that you got to know me and realized
how i really was.
i'm sorry how i really am.
i'm sorry i let you in.
i'm sorry i let you go.
i'm sorry for what i said.
i'm sorry for what i will say.
i'm sorry for how long i kept quiet.
i'm sorry for never letting them in.
i'm sorry for breaking those promises.
i'm sorry for not being real.
i'm sorry you think i don't care.
i'm sorry for keeping your secret.
i'm sorry i wasn't there when you needed me the most.

i'm sorry for complaining

And how do you make things grow when you have no water.

there will be a time when i realize that i, myself, am more important then your monsters.
Because i was fighting them with you as if they were my own.
it was not my duty. it was not my burden
there are so many things that remind me of you,
i'm starting to think i'll have nothing left to myself
i'm hanging on for something that isn't coming.
something i used to know made me this way.
you took something away that wasn't there.
i don't know why i'm still doing this.
i'll forget about this just a little bit longer,
i said i was done,
but i haven't gotten stronger.
what happened to not being one of them?
what inside of you made me so free?
what inside of you hurt me so bad?
just wait until it evaporates.
wait until you're standing in the cold,
nothing to warm you but the heat of bodies passing you.
they won't notice you.
i'll pass you too, one day.
i'll give you the shirt off of my back.

i'll regret it.
because you regretted me.
think we need to start remembering why we're here.
but some of us have no idea.

why am i the easiest to one-up and forget?

Soul Mate?! I thought you were

It`s completely impossible to find a guy who won`t ever hurt you. so go for the guy who will make the pain worthwhile. And i did. I just didnt know with would hurt that bad. Jetsky gulf-cost, that beautiful warm water...you turn around and kiss me. It was not so long ago. It was like yesterday. Why? why did u let me go, why did u gibe up on me?!
Sometimes when a person means that much to you, not even the truth can change your mind.
I know it seems like i`m this strong girl who can get through everything, but inside im pretty fragile. I`ve had so many things thrown at me,and each one has only made me crack. What i`m afraid of is that one of these days i`m going to shatter.
And you broke my heart. And you acted like somehow it was my fault, misunderstanding,
and I was too in love with you to ever be mad at you, so I just punished myself.

I'm trying to move on. I really am. I try to tell myself that you don’t want me and I can’t have you anymore. I try so hard, but how can you let go of the only person who makes you happy? The only person who makes you feel alive? The only reason you’re still here? You just can’t let go of someone like that.
But i cant talk to you.
I don't talk to you anymore and please believe me when I say it's not that I don't want to, it's just that everything I want to say I can't tell you anymore.
Its almost like suicide. You give so much to that special someone that you sometimes end up killing yourself inside.

But i know that no matter how powerful and real your feelings may be for someone, if that person cannot fully and honestly return them and therefore actively love you back, these feelings mean nothing. being lonely, being alone, for many people, sucks. i get it, i get it, i get it. but still i have to say that yes, my belief is that being with somebody who makes you feel shitty or doesn't honor the person you are is worse. life is hard enough as it is without choosing someone difficult to share it with. you deserve to be with someone who is nice to you all the time.



And i know that there will come a time When you'll be thinking about me and you'll miss me, and i'll completely fine. Remember how I felt, and remind yourself this is what you wanted. Because with every day coming and going, I'll learn how to be okay without you. And I can't wait for the day when I get to look at you and feel absolutely nothing.
Im sorry if it what feel is hate, but it comes and goes. It might just be a protective mode i deciced to adapt to numb the pain...Not For a single moment I want to feel like the universe isnt going to crush me; and my heart isnt about to explode.

But you dont know, probably dont care, because You'll never understand how much I hurt because you're not the one crying, you're not the one who is left behind, you're not the one who loved too much, and you're not the one who's holding on to someone that's gone
And if you say "i didn't mean to break your heart," before you finish the words you'll hear from me are "i didn't mean to fall in love either, but we all make mistakes.
Right now I just want to live my life without you. I want to be able to wake up each morning and not wish you would call me. I want to be able to walk around with a smile and pass right by you without a second glance, without noticing that you never gave me one.

I want to be immune to you and how you're hurting me. I just want to sit here and hate you. I need to find a way to deal with my pain and anger. I wish I could make you disappear. You want to know what my problem is? My lips say I hate you. But my heart whispers I still love you too much.

I’ll always love you. With every last piece of my broken heart

It’s amazing. People grow so used to the dark, they start to like it. The curtains blocking out the light are comforting to them. The dark makes them happy. But really it’s just an illusion. When the curtains are gone, and everything’s light, you see things you never even knew where there, and you really start to appreciate them. Of course, they were there before, but you never took the time to look


Why cant you just love me, like I love you? I know, you’ve given me a million chances to change my ways , but i've been stuburn.But I need you back, more than I need anything right now.
I would like to think each one of us has one moment in our life, where we feel completely perfect. Like everything’s finally fit together right. Yeah, that would be nice.

and...
It doesn’t matter how many times you tell me its gonna be okay, I just cant listen anymore, because you cant give me the one thing I want more than anything in the world. You cant give me you. So no, its not gonna be okay.

You made me happy, we were happy. But right now I’m stuck in this situation where I don’t know whether to completely ignore you and try to forget you, or to stick around and be there for you, just to prove I love you a billion times more than she does.
And If someone asks me who I see my future with, I picture it with somebody who doesn’t exist. I mean, its you, but it’s a you that actually loves me back.
But i can just hear the words in your mibd if you actually read this..."You gotta start listening to your brain once in a while if you want to save your heart."
Sometimes, when you love someone so much, not even the truth can change it.

But if you wonder why I don’t talk to you anymore, and please believe me when I say it’s not that I don’t want to, its just that everything I want to say, I cant tell you anymore.

And i cant help but to think that every guy is going to love a girl who will never love them back. And as he sits there crying because she will never want him, he doesn’t realise that there’s a girl across the world thinking of him. A girl who would give anything to see her smile, make her laugh, or kiss her in the rain. A boy who would never make him cry because she doesn’t want him. But he will forever be chasing the girl who will never love him, instead of giving his heart to the one who deserves it.
You choose whether or not you open your heart to love. And you know what I think? I think you do love me. Or you could love me. But you're just too stubborn and scared to admit it because the last time you really gave your heart to someone, it got broken. And I get that. I've been there. But somewhere along the line, you gave up on the idea that you deserve to feel this way again

And its just that There’s just something about you that I’ve always been scared to lose because I know I won’t find it in anybody else.
You said you never meant to hurt me, but that doesn’t make it right. You said you
were wrong and apologised way too many times but that doesn’t make it okay.
So listen, when I say it’s alright, its not. When you see the tears falling from my eyes, that means I’m not okay, I’m not that strong but I guess I should have seen it coming all along.
But i know that it will eventually change one day. It happens to everyone as they grow up...you find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that the people you've known forever don't see things the way you do. And so you keep the memories, but you find yourself moving on.

But untill then...Nobody could hurt me like I knew he could hurt me. But there’s no-one in this world I want more.

Just Another lonely day...

Yes indeed I'm alone again
and here comes emptiness crashing in
it's either love or hate
I can't find in between
cause I've been with witches
and I have been with a King

it wouldn't have worked out any way
so now it's just another lonely day
further along we just may
but for now it's just another lonely day

wish there was something
I could say or do
I can resist anything
but temptation from you
but I'd rather walk alone
than chase you around
I'd rather fall myself
than let you drag me down

it wouldn't have worked out any way
and now it's just another lonely day
further along we just may
but for now it's just another lonely day

yesterday seems like a life ago
cause the one I love
today I hardly know
you I held so close in my heart oh dear
grow further from me
with every falling tear

it wouldn't have worked out any way
so now it's just another lonely day
further along we just may
but for now it's just another lonely day

Tell him I hate him, tell him I never want to see him again, tell him I want him to die. Just don’t tell him I said all this with tears in my eyes.

I don't know why we all hang on to something we know we're better off letting go of. It's like we're scared to lose what we don't really even have. Some of us say we'd rather have that something than absolutely nothing but the truth is, to have it half way is harder than not having it at all.

you want to know what makes me love you more than i loved him? it's because when he got me, i was perfectly unused. i was fearless, and a hopeless romantic. when you got me i was bruised and battered. i was afraid of the world and cynical about love. and yet, you didn't leave

If you ask why I’m not interested in someone, I might say their nose is too big, or they don’t know how to dress, or they’re too thin or too fat or too plain. But the truth is, I only notice those things because of the real reason—that I’m just not feeling anything. But people don’t want to hear that. They always want an explanation. So I have to come up with something concrete even though feelings aren’t like that. If I did meet a guy and I felt happy with him for whatever reason, I wouldn’t give a rat’s ass what he wore or how tall he was or what he did for a living. But when I’m with someone and it just doesn’t feel right, that’s when I start noticing the bad haircut or Chicago accent or unibrow. And it’s true that tomorrow I may go home with someone who you think is totally wrong for me. And the next day I might meet a perfectly nice guy who you think I should feel excited about, but I don’t. But if I do go home with someone, it means for a change, something feels right. For a change, I’m feeling hopeful.

its a lot easier to be lost than found.
its the reason we're always searching but never discovered.
so many locks, not enough keys.
Trust me, I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you. I know what its like to wait for everyone to be asleep so you can just fall apart, for everything to hurt so bad you’re ready to let it all end. Trust me, I know exactly how it feels.

I tried to move on. I really did. I tried to tell myself that you don’t want me and I can’t have you anymore. I tried so hard but how can you let go of the only person who makes you happy, the only person who makes you feel alive, the only reason you’re still here? You can’t just let go of someone like that.
There’s always that one person no matter how long it’s been or how badly they’ve treated you, if they say I love you, you’ll say it back.

I finally realizedno matter how far away I go, I can never run away from my feelings for you. And I'd be lying if I told you losing you again
was something I could handle.

Because my feelings have never changed they're still the same, you can see it in my face when someone mentions your name.
I know that my moods were changing like the weather, but I really love those times we were together.

And I tried so hard. you know that, right? I tried harder than you could ever imagine, and now here I am, trying my best to forget everything. Every piece of you. The way you smell, the feel of your skin. Too bad it was always so soft. I can still feel you. I think I always will.

I needed you, I needed to hear you say you loved me, and I needed you to care. But, like I said, that was then and I don't need you anymore, but that doesn't mean I don't want you to need me.

Don’t forget, I’m just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her.

...and when shes gone, remember you once cared for her, you once needed her. you once thought that God had put her in your life for a reason. you can't deny that she was ever there. you cant deny what you had. you cant deny that it ended over absolutely nothing. you can't deny that regardless, you still think about it, and no other girl could ever love you the way she did. one day, you'll realize what you've done, you'll come back, she'll be gone.

i believe that everything happens for a reason. people change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you learn eventually to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together
It's true we don't know what we've got until its gone, but we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.Because, i am who i am, and he just happens to think thats perfect
When I think of you and me and what we shared, I know it would be easy for others to dismiss our time together as simply a by-product of the days and nights we spent by the sea, a "fling" that, in the long run, would mean absolutely nothing. Thats why I don't tell people about us. They wouldn't understand, and I don't feel the need to explain, simply becasue I know in my heart how real it was... how real this is. When I think of you I cant help smiling, knowing that you've completed me somehow. I love you, not just for now, but for always, and I dream of the day that you'll take me in your arms again
I-m trying to move on. I really am. I tried to tell myself that you don’t want me and I can’t have you anymore. I tried so hard but how can you let go of the only person who makes you happy, the only person who makes you feel alive, the only reason you’re still here? You can’t just let go of someone like that.
There’s always that one person no matter how long it’s been or how badly they’ve treated you, if they say I love you, you’ll say it back.
We can’t even look at each other. I turn away from you because I don’t want you to see the hurt in my eyes, and you turn away from me because you don’t want me to see that you still care. I know you do. You have to. We never wanted to leave each other. We just had to. We had to.

I finally realized no matter how far away I go I can never run away from my feelings for you.

I’m not going anywhere. This is it for me.You’re it for me. & I can’t pretend to feel
Any less than I do. I’m sorry; I just can’t

But sometimes the people you love are the ones who hurt you most, and sometimes you have to let go; even if you don’t want to, just so you don’t fall apart completely.
Sometimes you have to be apart from people you love, but that doesn’t make you love them any less, sometimes it makes you love them even more.



I wonder if I ever cross your mind. For me, it happens all the time.



You left your mark and set the standards impossibly high for every other guy
I don’t want to see you anymore. I’m just not that strong. I love it when you’re here, but I’m better when you’re gone.

You kept me around while you were looking for her. You knew it the whole time. And the truth is, I don’t feel anger anymore. What I feel is sorrow because you are never going to be happy, you are always going to want more.



Sometimes you get a second chance, because you just weren’t ready for the first one.

And in that moment, I felt my heart break. And I thought “I cant live without you, I don’t want to live without you,” and then it slowly crept into my mind that no matter how bad I wanted or needed you, it wouldn’t matter.



had a dream last night. A dream you came back. I touched your face, and kissed your lips, but then I woke up. I tried so hard to get back to sleep, and back to you. Because touching your face and kissing your lips will never happen again in anywhere but my dreams
miss the old you, and finally I have come to terms with the fact that, that boy is never coming back, not now, not ever. You’ve changed, and I’ve changed my mind
The only feeling of real loss is when you love someone more than you love yourself.
The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go and when to say goodbye when you still love them as much as you did yesterday.

can’t say goodbye, when I know there is still the faintest glimmer of hope that one day you will love me too.
I know exactly how that is. To love somebody who doesn't deserve it. Because they are all you have. Because any attention is better than no attention. For exactly the same reason, it is sometimes satisfying to cut yourself and bleed. On those gray days, where eight in the morning looks no different from noon and nothing has happened and nothing is going to happen. & you are washing a glass in the sink and it breaks - accidentally - a punctures your skin. & then there is this shocking red, the brightest thing in the day, so vibrant it buzzes, this blood of yours. That is okay sometimes, because at least you know you're alive.
I don't know why we all hang on to something
we know we're better off letting go.
It's like we're scared to lose what we don't even really have.
Some of us say we'd rather have that something than absolutely nothing,
But the truth is, to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all

So maybe you were special, and maybe you were supposed to be the one,
but then again maybe you were just like the rest of them,
only you took my heart with you when you left.
And at some point I’ll call you and tell you I miss you. And tell you, you are the point of my day. And my face will get flushed and my throat will choke up when you tell me that you feel the same.

I tried so hard. you know that, right? I tried harder than you could ever imagine, and now here I am, trying my best to forget everything. Every piece of you. The way you smell, the feel of your skin. Too bad it was always so soft. I can still feel you. I think I always will."
Back then I needed you, I needed to hear you say you loved me, and I needed you to care. But, like I said, that was then and I don't need you anymore, but that doesn't mean I don't want you to need me.

sometimes i just sit and think about what we've gone through,
how if it had been me and anyone else but you, well, i guess what im trying to say is
it wouldn't have meant as much.
& What hurt me the most before wasn't losing you; it was knowing you never fought to keep me.
You can't love anyone that way more than once in a lifetime. It's too hard and hurts too much when it ends. The first boy is always the hardest to get over, it's just the way the world works.
But don't expect me to be happy for you

and don't smile at me and tell me things

will work out for me too.

I don't want your pity.

I hate your pity.
You’ve changed so much. I guess that’s what happens. I wish you knew how much you’ve changed me. I wonder if I’ve changed you, if your life is different because of me. Because mines different. My god, you taught me so much, and now we don’t even talk to each other. I guess that’s what happens.

I do love you, don’t you see? Don’t you understand? You are the love of my life. I can’t leave you, but you are constantly leaving me. You walk away when you want; you come back when you want. You don’t leave everyone, not your friends, but you leave me. So I’m asking you, if you don’t see a future for us, if you’re not in this, please just end it, because I can’t. I’m in this. Put me out of my misery
You’ve changed so much. I guess that’s what happens. I wish you knew how much you’ve changed me. I wonder if I’ve changed you, if your life is different because of me. Because mines different. My god, you taught me so much, and now we don’t even talk to each other. I guess that’s what happens.
Even though I'm moving on, I will never forget you. All because you were my
first true love. And there will come a time in my life when I will thank you for
that because by you breaking my heart, it made me a little bit stronger and
you made me a little bit closer to finding the one that I'm meant to spend
the rest of my life with. The scary thing is; all the pain you put me through,
with a snap of your fingers I'd run back so fast. So I bet you love to know
you can have me at any moment if you want.


she wants you to find this, she wants you to read it, she wants you to understand
you never will.