Thursday, September 16, 2010
1- i may not have ended up where i intended to go, but i think i ended up where i needed to be.
2- it's strange how memory gets twisted and pulled like taffy in its retelling, how a single event can mean something to everyone present.
3- just because people treat you like shit, just because you may feel like shit sometimes, doesn’t mean you are shit. you can make something out of your life. you can give of yourself in this world to make it a better place.
4- so today i read something psychologist said. He said that the majority of people live within a box, and that’s their entire reality. all they see is the inside of the box, and they’re ‘asleep’ to anything else. people that have suffered from some form of mental illness are ‘awake’, because they've seen reality outside the box. he said no matter how hard people try to put that person back into the box, they will never fit, because they’ve seen something beyond it all.
5- she’s the girl that believes that what comes around goes around. the one that hopes for a better day. the one that won’t give up on you. she’s the girl that’s unlike the rest. the one that spent her days smiling, and her nights crying. she’s the girl that would love to be loved. the one that looks so damn strong, but feels so weak. she’s the girl that picks herself up every time she falls.
6- even though i'm moving on, i will never forget you. all because you were my first true love. and there will come a time in my life when i will thank you for that because by you breaking my heart, it made me a little bit stronger and you made me a little bit closer to finding the one that i'm meant to spend the rest of my life with. the scary thing is; all the pain you put me through, with a snap of your fingers i'd run back so fast. so i bet you love to know you can have me at any moment if you want.
7- don't come back to me, asking for a chance.I wont, i gave you far too many, you were just too blinded by your deamons to see it. so when i finally find someone who i could possibly fall in love with, don't come by saying i never gave you a chance. i gave you one, a big one. i was in love with you for so long. i waited, but i'm done waiting.
8- you don't like me? i don't care. you think i'm stubrn & stuck up? well, that's your opinion. you think I could lose some pounds? well, i will tell you right now that you are nothing close to perfect. the point is, what people think does not matter one single bit. just love yourself because in reality you can't love anyone else if you don't love yourself.
9- reach for the stars, stand on your tiptoes, and never tell yourself no. you, yes you, can achieve anything. it may take months, it may take years, but when you finally have a firm grasp on a star, the reward is breathtaking.
10- before you can grow up, you must fall in love three times. once, you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever. this will teach you who your true friends are, and the fine line between friendship and more. once you must fall in love with someone you believe is perfect. you will learn that no one is perfect, and that you should never be treated as anything less than you deserve. and once, you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you. this will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be. and when you're through with all that, you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt, and the ones that hurt you are the ones that needed you the most. but most of all, you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined, it is different to each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone only wants to be loved.
11- i don't need a rose, i want a daisy you'll picked for my hair. i don't want a box of fancy chocolates, i want a burnt cookie you'll made just for me. i don't want to go to some upscale restaurant, let's just have a picnic in the park. we don't have to go to a club, we can just dance on my front porch until we're tired.
12- when i like a person, i actually like them. it's not one of those three day crush type things. it's a hardcore, can't get them off my mind thing. and that's why i haven't liked all that many people. but eventually i get over them when i find someone new. but with him, no matter who i find, i can't erase him. he's going to be the one i'll always like.
13- i hope you know that you were once the most important person in my life, for a very long time. you were the guy i thought about while listening to all those songs, the one guy who made me actually look forward to waking up in the morning. you were the guy who could make or break me. who had my heart, but never bothered to do anything about it.
14- it's funny how you can be face to face with someone and yet it feels as though you're on the other side of the world from them. they haven't actually gone anywhere, but they might as well have. it's one of the worst feelings to become acquainted with: to miss someone who's literally right there.
15- too often we're scared. scared of what we might not be able to do. scared of what people might think if we tried. we let our fears stand in the way of our hopes. we say no when we want to say yes. we sit quietly when we want to scream and we shout when we should keep our mouths shut. why? after all, we do only go around once, there's really no time to be afraid. Just do it.
16- he didnt really do anything wrong to me. i mean yes i liked him more than he obviously liked me, but the only thing he is truly guilty of is teasing me. it's the cute texts, the long hugs, the way he makes me feel. all he's guilty of is making me insanely happy and then taking that away by dating other girls and never wanting to truly be with me. i can't even blame him for it. it's my fault for falling so damn easily.
17- she's deeper than you think she is. she has secrets of her own, little secrets no one must know, but all you see is the outer image, the genuine smile and funky flip flops. she smiles because that's who she is, but there is pain, and hurt, you just can't see it. you see what she wants you to see, you'll never know the truth. she's scared that you will judge her, but even if you don't make a sound, you won't ever see the things that bring her down.
18- i don't think you're leaving. i think you're running. and what i can't figure out is, are you running towards something you want? or are you running away from something you're afraid to want?
19- you only find a few people in this world, a few people who will tell you they love you and actually mean it with all their heart. don't forget those people who stood by you through it all, the special few that were there for you until the very end.
20- strength is nothing more than how well you hide the pain.