Monday, July 19, 2010
Im breaking my heart tonight to see whats inside
love is almost like suicide. You give so much to that special someone.. that you
sometimes end up killing yourself inside.
And I'm tired of people saying he's not worth my tears. if he wasn't worth it, i wouldn't still be crying. you don't know it, but that boy changed my world. you'll never know how much he meant to me.
no one will ever really understand how the smile on her face turned into the tears
in her eyes. she said she was just upset,but she'll get over him soon. but no, she
knew it was because the one person she trusted, the one she gave her heart to,broke her. broke her into a million pieces, and now the most important one is missing.
What if i said that you never mattered? that i never lost one moment of sleep?
what if i crushed all your dreams? broke all the promises i swore to keep?
tell me how your life would be if i did to you what you did to me? You gav up on me. You stoped believing in me. You didnt think that i fit the standarts for your new desigh for life.
And i keep thinking about her and wha she meant to you and i start feeling my insignificance when compared to her...and yeah, i'm always on your mind,but only when she's off it. so maybe you think of me when times get rough.and when you're feeling extra lonely for some girls touch, but that's not enough.
And i i want you to look at me like you've never looked at anyone else. i want you
to look at me like i have something other girls don't.
I know im still in denial even tough i say i'm not in denial, i'm trying hard to let go. This is a mistake i'm just going to have to learn from. this situation had a lot morebad than good, and maybe i loved you more than i should.
So girl, holding on to the phone, holding on to this glass. holding on to the memoriesof what didn't last. waiting for better words, they'll never come. so dry
your eyes, it's better now it's done...
But the worst feeling isn't being lonely, but being forgotten by someone you couldnever forget. to look back and see how things used to be, knowing it'll never be
the same and realizing it doesn't matter to him at all because he doesn't miss a
thing. that's the worst feeling-
So this is a cross road.
I believe the most difficult situation you can ever be faced with is deciding
whether you should just move on or hold on a little tighter. move on and maybe you'll lose a chance at the best thing that could ever happened, or hold on and have the possibility of one day being the biggest disaster created-